Closure.

First off, let me start by saying Im sorry,
My intentions were never to hurt you,
But you sitting here thinking I played you like atari.

Nah girl let put this out there now,
There were feelings I felt,
But saying them I didnt know how.

No it wasnt that 4 letter word,
Thinking about it now,
That wouldve been absurd.

Only knew you for a few,
Being single was still brand new,
I longed for what I had,
Thought it was with you.

I wasnt wrong, but I wasnt right,
It was so uncalled for,
I keep replaying that fight,
It use to keep me up at night.

I think what we had was more friends with benefits,
I know that isnt right,
It might make you sick.
You comforted me, as I did you,
We both knew what we were going through.
I was sad and alone,
You needed a friendly voice on the phone.

I just wanted to clear things up and get it iff my chest,
You know finally put this old anguish to rest.

You showed me there are good people out there,
And that I shouldnt fret,
But you also showed me what I should be careful for,
And that I didnt get.

From the jump you wanted all my time,
I felt like I couldnt breathe,
At that time I didnt get it,
You just wanted me for me.

Now I see that youre doing well,
Thats all I ever wanted,
I hope your life stays swell,
Dont pretend, or put on a front.

Show people the loving person I know you can be,
No thanks to me, I sorry I couldnt see.
Keep your head up and stride high.
This letter to you is my final goodbye.

Im sorry for everything I put you through,
But you made it,
Well, in life thats all you can do.
Love yourself and your family,
Thats all you need, for that I know is true.
Never again shall you be sad and blue.

Im happy with my life and so are you.

<3 tbabes

worthless

Have you ever just felt like you arent enough? Like no matter what you do you will never be good enough? You work your ass off to get where you want to be and still feel worthless? Sometimes I try not to break down and cry because I know that I am not good enough. I will never amount to the one most important person. I am just something that they hope to be the best they have ever had, yet I am no where close to being the best. I am a worthless piece of shit that means nothing to no one. My family acts like they like me when I know deep down they dont. Deep inside I dont even know what I am doing anymore. Day in and day out... same routine. No friends because I cant trust anyone, but i can always help people but no one offers to help in return. I am dying here... in my own nightingale complex. Oh well... fuck it.