worthless

Have you ever just felt like you arent enough? Like no matter what you do you will never be good enough? You work your ass off to get where you want to be and still feel worthless? Sometimes I try not to break down and cry because I know that I am not good enough. I will never amount to the one most important person. I am just something that they hope to be the best they have ever had, yet I am no where close to being the best. I am a worthless piece of shit that means nothing to no one. My family acts like they like me when I know deep down they dont. Deep inside I dont even know what I am doing anymore. Day in and day out... same routine. No friends because I cant trust anyone, but i can always help people but no one offers to help in return. I am dying here... in my own nightingale complex. Oh well... fuck it.