Hello loves, its been a while since Ive been on. Life has been so busy.
I am trying to keep my spirits up and move along with life.
So many may think that I post way too much of my personal life into my blogs, but what you have to understand is that this is my outlet. I call it "Vents of Air" for the simple fact of me being able to vent... to express myself... to release all my held back emotions and thoughts.
Lately I have been on an emotional roller coaster. I have recently quit smoking cigs so that I could have better chance of becoming pregnant once I decide that I would like to reproduce mini mes. (The world better prepare.. oh goodness) I have been needy, whinny and damn near "I'm gonna kill you" annoying --- and that is just me to myself... HA. Imagine what it is like for those around me!
I have a lot of insecurities. With a lot of people that I have dated, I have always been their "first" Asian. Everyone has this mindset where they unintentionally stereotype everyone they meet. Then I turn out to be NOT what they expected. I do warn people ahead of time though. I know myself. I have a semi-dominant personality, I am constantly hot and cold(some may say I am bi-polar), and I go from 0 to 220 in 2 seconds flat. One thing I wish that people could understand is that I joke around a lot... like I may not seem like I am, but I really do. Sometimes I do it to see what your reaction is to it. Yeah, yeah... I know what you're thinking.. why play with people like that. I AM A FREAKING PSYCH MAJOR. I dont play with no one. Human interactions and emotions.. it is interesting to see how each individual reacts to certain things. Maybe I am an asshole for that... eh.
Lets see.... what else? Cooking.. If anyone has any suggestions or recipes they want me to try, send them to me! I want to learn new recipes and try new things. I am also trying transition to being a vegetarian.. so definitely send those. I dont oppose things with meat though. My amazing significant other is down to ALMOST try anything lol. SEND SEND SEND!!!! Ready, set, GO!!!
A note that I want to leave you guys on is.. always be positive and move forward. There is no need to dwel on something that will not change. I totally love when people know that I am capable of doing things and encourage me. I know that I am capable of doing it, I just need that push to go and do it. I can push myself, of course, but that extra support is very helpful. I have to sacrifice somethings to get it done, but I definitely know that it'd be worth it. SO STAY POSITIVE AND MOTIVATED!
This is me signing off loves.
As always, chin up and arms out... take life a day at a time.
Everything will get better, I promise.
-tbabes <3
Saturday, July 23, 2016
Monday, July 4, 2016
Giving Up: A Feeling We All Have
Have you ever felt like you just weren't good enough for anything or anyone?
I have.
Plenty of times.
Life is hard.
It will push your limits until you feel like you just want it all to go away.
To this day, as much as I love myself, I cant help but to feel that I am unimportant. I have no impact and that I am useless to anyone that I come across. I dont have much to offer. I may seem like I have my life together but truth is.. I dont. Everyday is a challenge for me. I often think to myself, how have I made a difference to this world? Usually my answer is no. Thats okay I guess. eventually I will right?
People will push and pull and whip you around to get a reaction from you. WELL guess what??? Tell them to GO FUCK THEMSELVES! Just because you have a shitty life or attitude, dont place your FUCKING shame on me you douche!
I dont lack inspiration, I just lack some motivation. I want to do so many things in life but I dont have a push.. I dont even need a push. Just a nudge would help.. maybe lol.
Everyday I just go through the motions.. Like different people effect my day. I know that overall I make my day so I dont let it get to me. I feel like giving up more often than none. I find each breath to breathe and each step to walk a little more difficult each day.. like I am suffocating and unable to control what my actions are. Most days I just want to lay in bed and say fuck it all.
When I feel like giving up, I think of everything that makes life worth while. My brother and sister mostly. They are 15 and 19 now. My nephew which will be born in the next month!! I am so excited! This new relationship I am in feels like this is a forever thing and not a right now, its nice for change. Its a great feeling really. It gives me hope for a great future! So many other things too :)
Things will change for the better, important thing is you must remember not to give up just because life sucks and people are horrible. You make your own day and your control your life. The change starts with you. Never give up on your dreams!!!
This is me signing off loves!!!
as always, chin up and arms out... take life a day at a time.
-tbabes<3
I have.
Plenty of times.
Life is hard.
It will push your limits until you feel like you just want it all to go away.
To this day, as much as I love myself, I cant help but to feel that I am unimportant. I have no impact and that I am useless to anyone that I come across. I dont have much to offer. I may seem like I have my life together but truth is.. I dont. Everyday is a challenge for me. I often think to myself, how have I made a difference to this world? Usually my answer is no. Thats okay I guess. eventually I will right?
People will push and pull and whip you around to get a reaction from you. WELL guess what??? Tell them to GO FUCK THEMSELVES! Just because you have a shitty life or attitude, dont place your FUCKING shame on me you douche!
I dont lack inspiration, I just lack some motivation. I want to do so many things in life but I dont have a push.. I dont even need a push. Just a nudge would help.. maybe lol.
Everyday I just go through the motions.. Like different people effect my day. I know that overall I make my day so I dont let it get to me. I feel like giving up more often than none. I find each breath to breathe and each step to walk a little more difficult each day.. like I am suffocating and unable to control what my actions are. Most days I just want to lay in bed and say fuck it all.
When I feel like giving up, I think of everything that makes life worth while. My brother and sister mostly. They are 15 and 19 now. My nephew which will be born in the next month!! I am so excited! This new relationship I am in feels like this is a forever thing and not a right now, its nice for change. Its a great feeling really. It gives me hope for a great future! So many other things too :)
Things will change for the better, important thing is you must remember not to give up just because life sucks and people are horrible. You make your own day and your control your life. The change starts with you. Never give up on your dreams!!!
This is me signing off loves!!!
as always, chin up and arms out... take life a day at a time.
-tbabes<3Friday, July 1, 2016
One of those days.
Have you ever had one of those days where you knew everything just was not going to go right like at all??
Well, today was that day for me.
I overslept.
I never mean to oversleep, but sometimes it is just so hard to wake up. Nice cozy bed with your significant other. I need a big push out of my bed.
I should've went to help my mother but I didnt. I feel like a bad daughter sometimes because as a grown woman, I still depend on my parents for that support. (which I never had growing up) I miss my family when I dont get to see them for weeks or spend time with them. ** Mainly its to get on their nerves and get bitched at for the way I live my life*** However, I would not change that for anything. I still love them wholeheartedly <3
I spent more on groceries than I intended but I mean I need food in the house right? That is how you survive. I'm totally not complaining. I totally need to manage my money better is all. I have never been good at that.
I was shorthanded at work today but that was unavoidable. I was okay with that entirely.
The atmosphere at work today couldve been better. I love my job and it pains me to see that no one else feels the same way that I do.
Yes, people are not entirely bad, but like you cant fix stupid. No matter where you go customers will not fully grasp what your job is and why we do things a certain way.
I just wish that everyone could totally understand that.
I have a wonderful girlfriend by my side that totally supports me in everything that I do and I couldn't be more thankful for that. It is nice when unexpected things happen in life and that it is a good change to life. I totally was not looking to be with anyone, but I do not regret my decision to be where I am today.
I have a lot of hard days, but I know that in the end it is totally going to be okay. Every one goes through things but as long as you know that there is a beautiful rainbow at the end, it is all worth it.
So yes, I have had a super challenging day, but in the end I know that something is good will come of it.
So when you have a hard day just think that it could be worse. You are blessed and you will not go through anything that you cannot handle. You are stronger than you think. No one else going to have your back like yourself.
so this is me signing off loves.
As always, chin up and arms out.. take life a day at a time.
-tbabes<3
Well, today was that day for me.
I overslept.
I never mean to oversleep, but sometimes it is just so hard to wake up. Nice cozy bed with your significant other. I need a big push out of my bed.
I should've went to help my mother but I didnt. I feel like a bad daughter sometimes because as a grown woman, I still depend on my parents for that support. (which I never had growing up) I miss my family when I dont get to see them for weeks or spend time with them. ** Mainly its to get on their nerves and get bitched at for the way I live my life*** However, I would not change that for anything. I still love them wholeheartedly <3
I spent more on groceries than I intended but I mean I need food in the house right? That is how you survive. I'm totally not complaining. I totally need to manage my money better is all. I have never been good at that.
I was shorthanded at work today but that was unavoidable. I was okay with that entirely.
The atmosphere at work today couldve been better. I love my job and it pains me to see that no one else feels the same way that I do.
Yes, people are not entirely bad, but like you cant fix stupid. No matter where you go customers will not fully grasp what your job is and why we do things a certain way.
I just wish that everyone could totally understand that.
I have a wonderful girlfriend by my side that totally supports me in everything that I do and I couldn't be more thankful for that. It is nice when unexpected things happen in life and that it is a good change to life. I totally was not looking to be with anyone, but I do not regret my decision to be where I am today.
I have a lot of hard days, but I know that in the end it is totally going to be okay. Every one goes through things but as long as you know that there is a beautiful rainbow at the end, it is all worth it.
So yes, I have had a super challenging day, but in the end I know that something is good will come of it.
So when you have a hard day just think that it could be worse. You are blessed and you will not go through anything that you cannot handle. You are stronger than you think. No one else going to have your back like yourself.
so this is me signing off loves.
As always, chin up and arms out.. take life a day at a time.
-tbabes<3
Customer Service
Let's talk about customer service. You know I believe that it goes both ways. If you are a rude customer then the customer service rep or the server has the option to be good or shitty. Now don't get me wrong, there are instances where that person my be having a bad day... so you may get get horrible customer service because this person doesn't know how to separate work from their personal life.
I have worked in food, retail, and a call center. From my end let me tell you.. if that person came with a bad attitude then all I could really do is smile and be nice. YOU KNOW, the customer is always right. My biggest thing with that is when people try to tell you how to do your job. Like you dont practically live, sleep and eat your job. Let me handle it the way I want to and you can go about your day when you are done.
Ugh...I cannot stand people sometimes. I am not sure how hard is it to handle a simple message. If I tell you to arrive at a certain time and you are late to that appointment, you will not get in. You knew this prior when you made a reservation. Why did you not check the damn traffic before you left the house? HELLO, we love in freaking HOUSTON.. GOOD GRIEF! Dont get mad at me becasue you didn't know how to make it on time. The give me a sob story about how his 85 year old grandma is here to see him blah blah blah.. YOU were late. YOU have been here before so you know how it goes. First off, you didnt check in your and neither did your husband. IDK where tf your husband was because without a wristband your son wasn't going to fly. We could have rescheduled you for a later time and you couldve taken her to sight see a bit more. Idk something.
Well anyways, I cannot remember where EXACTLY I was going with this blog. sooo in the meantime until I remember, this is me signing off loves.
Chin up and arms out.. take life a day at a time!
-tbabes <3
I have worked in food, retail, and a call center. From my end let me tell you.. if that person came with a bad attitude then all I could really do is smile and be nice. YOU KNOW, the customer is always right. My biggest thing with that is when people try to tell you how to do your job. Like you dont practically live, sleep and eat your job. Let me handle it the way I want to and you can go about your day when you are done.
Ugh...I cannot stand people sometimes. I am not sure how hard is it to handle a simple message. If I tell you to arrive at a certain time and you are late to that appointment, you will not get in. You knew this prior when you made a reservation. Why did you not check the damn traffic before you left the house? HELLO, we love in freaking HOUSTON.. GOOD GRIEF! Dont get mad at me becasue you didn't know how to make it on time. The give me a sob story about how his 85 year old grandma is here to see him blah blah blah.. YOU were late. YOU have been here before so you know how it goes. First off, you didnt check in your and neither did your husband. IDK where tf your husband was because without a wristband your son wasn't going to fly. We could have rescheduled you for a later time and you couldve taken her to sight see a bit more. Idk something.
Well anyways, I cannot remember where EXACTLY I was going with this blog. sooo in the meantime until I remember, this is me signing off loves.
Chin up and arms out.. take life a day at a time!
-tbabes <3
More about me
Hey you all!
So I want to take this time to let you know a little more about me.
I am a very kind soul and I always try to help people even if I have never met them. It isn't as bad anymore like it was before. For instance, I once sent money to this one person because she needed money to pay for her -sons'- daycare. Something that you will learn about me is that I am a sucker for kids. I cant wait until I have my own. I didn't want this child not to attend daycare because she didn't have money. It got to the point where she only spoke to me when she needed money or want to be a bum ass woman and ask for shit. I then later found out that she didn't work. Which I understand because she had some type of injury that disabled her. Whatever, I don't judge on people who get help from the government. Heck, I have even had a little bit of help. Needless to say I stopped talking to her and never gave her anymore money after that first time. Like she sent me text messages saying "Hey my bday is coming up" - and proceeded to send me pictures of things she wanted. FIRST OFF, UM NO!!!! The freaking nerve! Don't get me started on people that you are suppose to call friends though.. Like.. My biggest pet peeve is if you ONLY fuck with me when it is convenient for them. Like leave me alone if I am only in your life because you can ask me for things in your best interest. I am not a pushover anymore. When I was younger yes, because I was naive and I was the first generation born here so I was really shown what to be aware of. I had to learn LIFE by myself with no guidance. I did a lot of things in my life but I don't regret them one bit. Through everything, I lived and learned. I say that I regret it and at times I do, but overall it was a lesson learned in the school of life.
Growing up I was not a rebel, I just had a mind of my own and liked to learn the hard way. MAAAANNNN did I learn the hard way.
When I love, I love with all of my everything. As much as I try to not give my everything to someone that is newly into my life, somehow I do. Once I get to know this person one of two things happen. It is a good thing or it is a bad thing and I horribly regret it. I am an easy person to get along with. Mistakenly, you may fall for this easiness as a connection. Sometimes it is sometimes it isnt. If I really click with you I will always talk to you and want your time... a bit clingy I know. Ive never really connected with someone and not get tired or bored of them until recently. In my past usually within the first two weeks or so I get bored, Im tried of seeing them, or just slightly annoyed with their shit. Yet somehow I am so nice that they just dont get it. If you have to beg or ask for MY TIME, then some thing is wrong. If I am digging you I will always be there and GIVE you my time. Same thing with friends though. It is just one of those things about my personality. One thing about me is I do not get into relationships with someone that I have known for a long time. Once I have known you for a long time and you are put in the "friend-zone"... there is no getting out... LIKE EVER. There are a few that have found this out.. and well yeah.. thats it.
But I have run out of time.. and thoughts. I will totally write more later.
This is me signing off loves.
Remember, chin up and arms out... take life a day at a time
-tbabes<3
So I want to take this time to let you know a little more about me.
I am a very kind soul and I always try to help people even if I have never met them. It isn't as bad anymore like it was before. For instance, I once sent money to this one person because she needed money to pay for her -sons'- daycare. Something that you will learn about me is that I am a sucker for kids. I cant wait until I have my own. I didn't want this child not to attend daycare because she didn't have money. It got to the point where she only spoke to me when she needed money or want to be a bum ass woman and ask for shit. I then later found out that she didn't work. Which I understand because she had some type of injury that disabled her. Whatever, I don't judge on people who get help from the government. Heck, I have even had a little bit of help. Needless to say I stopped talking to her and never gave her anymore money after that first time. Like she sent me text messages saying "Hey my bday is coming up" - and proceeded to send me pictures of things she wanted. FIRST OFF, UM NO!!!! The freaking nerve! Don't get me started on people that you are suppose to call friends though.. Like.. My biggest pet peeve is if you ONLY fuck with me when it is convenient for them. Like leave me alone if I am only in your life because you can ask me for things in your best interest. I am not a pushover anymore. When I was younger yes, because I was naive and I was the first generation born here so I was really shown what to be aware of. I had to learn LIFE by myself with no guidance. I did a lot of things in my life but I don't regret them one bit. Through everything, I lived and learned. I say that I regret it and at times I do, but overall it was a lesson learned in the school of life.
Growing up I was not a rebel, I just had a mind of my own and liked to learn the hard way. MAAAANNNN did I learn the hard way.
When I love, I love with all of my everything. As much as I try to not give my everything to someone that is newly into my life, somehow I do. Once I get to know this person one of two things happen. It is a good thing or it is a bad thing and I horribly regret it. I am an easy person to get along with. Mistakenly, you may fall for this easiness as a connection. Sometimes it is sometimes it isnt. If I really click with you I will always talk to you and want your time... a bit clingy I know. Ive never really connected with someone and not get tired or bored of them until recently. In my past usually within the first two weeks or so I get bored, Im tried of seeing them, or just slightly annoyed with their shit. Yet somehow I am so nice that they just dont get it. If you have to beg or ask for MY TIME, then some thing is wrong. If I am digging you I will always be there and GIVE you my time. Same thing with friends though. It is just one of those things about my personality. One thing about me is I do not get into relationships with someone that I have known for a long time. Once I have known you for a long time and you are put in the "friend-zone"... there is no getting out... LIKE EVER. There are a few that have found this out.. and well yeah.. thats it.
But I have run out of time.. and thoughts. I will totally write more later.
This is me signing off loves.
Remember, chin up and arms out... take life a day at a time
-tbabes<3
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