I want you to know that I love you. You stole my heart the first day we met over 3 years ago. We were both in unhappy relationships at that point in time however we thought that we were in love and were willing to keep trying with them. Days passed since I first met you and never saw you again. I was sad about that no doubt but life was funny. Somehow I started seeing you more in the most random places. Those few times at the coffee shop where you were waiting on so said girlfriend to get off or whatnot. I saw you there a few times and never had the nerve to say anything with the fear of rejection. My heart would've melted had you not remembered who I was. One day, I said fuck it and walked up to you and finally said hi... I died a little inside because the way you responded sounded like you didn't know who I was. I know now that wasn't the case. Sorry about that by the way LOL. Then again, I lost you. Suddenly one day, my sister wanted to get her hair done so I took her and stayed with her. I had a small conversation with the hair dresser and as we spoke I told her that I was a lesbian and she was like "oh I am too. My girlfriend is actually right there." Would you know it... to my surprise it was you. However, you were so into your phone you didn't even notice me. I didn't bother to even say hi. You were taken, what would've been the point??
Well fast forward. Years later, here I am in a car with you on our way to visit your family. These are the moments I live for. Going on roadtrips with the love of my life and getting away. Jamming to our random music. I cant believe that we are here today.
I have gotten to wake up and fall asleep beside you. Now lets not sugar coat this shit and say we cuddle all the time. Truth is, we dont. It gets hot sometimes!! Not to mention when Im not feeling well or have a stuffed nose... let me apologise for all the random tissues and snotrags you may find. Everyday when I come home and youre there, its makes my day. I wouldnt want to come home and see anyone else. You are the voice that calms me down, you are the presence that makes my whole being know everything is okay, you are the future I envision. I will give up my last for you. My past, my exes - they are gone - they wont do anything but cause trouble and instill doubts. I believe us to be a forever thing, so anything that may cause doubts, Im not about it. Hell, me and my ex raised a child together and because she would try to cause problems I had to tell her to step off. Plus it would be disrespectful to our relationship since you voiced that you dont do exes. Neither do I, I am glad that we have this mutual agreement. Overall, you make my life more meaningful than it was before.
I love the way we laugh about nothing, do the most randomest shit and just have a good time overall. Theres not a thing about you that I would change. You have shown me that love is real and that maybe I am meant to be as happy as the people we see in these gay ass movies. I love when you fall asleep first and I hear your grizzly bear snores or that cute thing you do when you yawn. You allow me to be myself without judgement. I can only hope I do the same for you. I love you for who you are and what youve been through. Everything you have endured has made you into this wonderful human being unexplainable by any words. You are an absolute gift to those who are lucky enough to have you in their life. I cant wait to see what the future holds for us.
I am not the easiest person to get along with and I thank you so much for putting up with me. I have mood swings and attitudes. I dont always think before I speak. Please believe that I will never do anything to hurt you. I want to make you as happy as you make me. My past has really fucked me up and I hope that you can put up with me as I overcome these obstacles. Thank you for understanding what I have gone through and working with me through them. I was happy alone before I met you but now you have made my life even more amazing than I could ever think possible. All I ask is for you to please be patient with me. Again, I love you... mucho mas que palabras. You are my forever and always. 💕
Sincerely,
This mess of a woman.
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