My blogs are becoming more recent and more often. How do you
guys like it? I know there aren’t many of yall but I know you are out there
reading and peering into my life. I thank you for taking the time out of your
day to read through my rants about mostly nothingness. I know that last blog
may have been hurtful but I am okay. I am a strong woman and I have the best
support behind me. Everyone... and I MEAN EVERYONE… goes through those moments
and you just breathe. All is better. Never, please never think that I would
take my life away… I no longer have those urges – just mini mental breakdowns –
for that I am sorry if it causes you discomfort. I have a beautiful loving
girlfriend, a nephew that is almost 1 and another one on the way. I can’t ask
for a better life. Sometimes things seem impossible but I know that in the end
it’ll all be worth it. Many things take time. It’s a repetitive statement in
all my blogs. GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME.
Yes, all things that I post are real. They are not made up
stories that I grab from random thoughts in my head. ALTHOUGH – I want to start
writing a story and want to post it on here… Give me feedback maybe? I don’t care
who you are. I would love some feedback.
Going back to what I was saying… my life is hectic. I work
nonstop. I am thankful for the evenings that I get to spend with my family and
my girlfriend. When I can for the most part… I saw my nephew the other day for
about an hour, I hadn’t seen him in almost 2 months and I think he had
forgotten about me. I was very sad and distracted my mind by cleaning my
mothers’ house. I still played with him and we had a few laughs. I loved it. Its
crazy, I thought at this age that I would have a set career where I enjoyed everything
that I do, be finished with school and be married to the love of my life
working on a family. So far none of that has been accomplished except for me
finding the love of my life. It only took us 3-4 years to actually talk to each
other. In that instance… I jumped on that opportunity. We were both single.. I
had wanted to talk to her for so long.. I couldn’t let her slip from my grasps
again. This is going to sound horrible, but I am glad it didn’t work out with
the rest of them… What we have is what I have been waiting for my whole life. I
have never been able to be myself with anyone else. I was always having to
change or pretend to be someone I wasn’t. In one of my past relationships, I
even gave away my super comfortable bball shorts because “Studs” are the only
ones who wear those. Which was 100% FALSE. I knew plenty of girls that loved
bball shorts that were not studs. I LOVED THOSE BBALL SHORTS.. UGH. Anywho, now
I can have messy hair and look a hot mess and I know that I am loved either
way. Many of you guys are probably wondering who this woman is that has me completely
helplessly in love with her. I will post a pic soon I promise. It may even be
this post. It all depends on how I am feeling. Our story is totally something
out of a fairy tale. Maybe one day Ill leave it on here. Who knows.
I feel like I have so much to say but I also want to save
some for my later blogs. So with that being said I think I am done with this
one. Look for some more soon! <3
Well this is me signing off loves.
Remember: chin up and arms out. Take like a day at a time.
Things WILL indeed get better.
Always,
~tbabes<3
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